What I have learned from my little mower

The process of gaining experience through trial and error should be quicker and easier for me than it is. I am usually one step ahead of myself in my thinking, but for some reason I put off trying ideas for no better reasons than laziness and lack of self confidence. Part of my purpose of publishing this web log project is to expose my thinking to the light of day. After some seasons have passed I can study and review my patterns of thought. Then with better understanding of my self I may strengthen my weaknesses and capitalize my strengths. Also it requires exercise to keep up a publishing schedule and exercise improves one's fitness.

My little mower is becoming a well-oiled cutting machine. I have wrestled with proper adjustment of both the cutting blade and the cutting height. I generally wanted the cutting blade too tight and the cutting height too low. It's a macho thing. I could not let go of the control and let things be. This wrestling match is not with the manufacturer of the mower, not with Sears, not with any other "they", or "them". I wrestle with my self.

It is easy to think, "That's too tight, loosen it up a bit." It is easy to think, "That's too low, raise the cutting height." It is easy to think, "After cutting the grass, rinse the clippings off the mower with the hose." It takes no divine revelation to think, "Spray the metal parts with W D 40 so they dry and are lubricated." Thinking like that is so easy it seems there is some kind of guardian angel guiding me in my heart's desire with simple and direct ideas. I am sure most people consciously or unconsciously experience this.

These directives can be acted upon easily. So why do I have to argue with my self and make an easy job hard? I am slow to complete simple tasks. Why? With persistence you can't help finally finding your way if you have any sense at all even if you don't catch on quickly. I read somewhere once that God is the God of the quick and the dead. Would to God I were a little more quick than dead. I need all the help I can get.